Well, this morning I had a dream that made me consumed with running a 5k. During the day, I thought it through and made a plan. And tonight I put it into action! But just when you thought I had it all together, another set back. Let me backtrack.
I got hungry at the office around 3:30. I decided to indulge my hunger since I have the calories to spare and I’m trying to ward off late afternoon snacking. I had a Luna Bar:
Snack was 180 calories, 25g carbs, 5g fat, and 10g protein.
Around this time, I sat down and planned out the rest of my summer and my training/exercise schedule. I’m traveling alot in July, so it’s going to be a little all over the place. Later, I got home and had a snack: 1/2c 0% Fage and 25g dried cranberries:
Snack was 137 calories, 25g carbs, 0g fat, and 10g protein.
This was the beginning of the end. I decided to have a couple of my Gilda’s Biscotti and mark it down after I finished eating (TERRIBLE IDEA). Gone went the rest of the bag. Then I made this. Ugh. (Sorry to drag you into this, Ari!) Luckily, I’m not too upset with myself. Usually when I start getting really ahead of myself (”I’m gonna do this, I’m gonna do this, and It’s going to be so great, and I’m going to be so healthy, and I’m going to lose so much weight!”), a binge is soon to follow. I freak myself out. I don’t know if I’m afraid of success or what, but eh.
Moving on…
I had my first C25K run tonight!! And it was (please don’t let this be a jinx) easy! I’ve definitely worked out harder at the gym! I thought I would be winded - but I totally handled it - not a big deal at all (and a nice little extra calorie burn too!). I even set up my IPod to coach my runs: the song changed every time I needed to switch speed (either every 60 sec or every 90 sec). VERY helpful. So here’s how the runs are going to work: there’s nine weeks to the program, and each week has 3 runs, so each run will be marked week number.run number in the side bar. So this was C25K Run 1.1 = 358 calories burned.
Now I usually am a believer in having a little something after a binge (veggies, fruit, etc), but I’m so stuffed I couldn’t possibly. P got me a sandwich from a deli for dinner (so sweet!), but I’m going to save it for lunch tomorrow. Have a great night guys!
You’re a LOT better than me when I used to binge, because at the time, I was too weak and scrawny to do anything but walk sslloowwllyy. Exercise makes me feel strong, like I can overcome anything, even a night of extra indulgences. Keep up the healthy attitude!
Good for you for recognizing the binge though, and letting it go and moving on. Baby steps at a time. I know you can do it. I had a bit of a binge tonight too. But I haven’t done that in a while. And after tonight, I don’t plan on doing it for a while again. And I believe that you can keep it up and resist the binges too!
That’s so weird that you suddenly got inspired to do a 5k because I did about 2 days ago just randomly. I’m not much of a runner but I thought hey, I should try it, why not right? The worst that could happen is I have to walk, but who cares if I’m doing it for me and for fun, right? We can totally do it and not let anything like food slip ups stand in our way because we’re still strong & healthy people!
It’s all right lover, you’ll be okay! Heck, maybe you revved up your metabolism (or metRabolism — Legally Blonde
) so much from all of the excitement and you needed the extra fuel! No biggie at all! Today is a brand new day 
Isn’t that such a nice concept? Love it! And you, so smile and have the best tuesday ever!
Today is a new day, Kate - you’ll be fine, I know it!! And congratulations for making the 5K a reality!! You’ll do fabulously in it :0)
Kate,
Have you been dealing with binge issues for awhile? I have been reading your blog for a few months and noticed you never really discussed it before. I’ve had my own issues with disordered eating (both eating not enough and binging). I find that I can go about 10 days with really healthy eating and then a binge occurs. I’m not sure how to get past this other than just keep trying. I know I feel a lot better when I’m eating well and working out. Congrats on your weight loss so far and keep up the good work!
Your positive attitude totally shines thru in your post- stick with it, you’re doing great
Awe, don’t get stressed out! You know to hop right back on the wagon now
And at least you still went out for your run…and it was easy!
Are you running on a treadmill? If so, I’d suggest adding a little bit of an incline…running outside is a little harder than the treadmill (unfortunately).
Thank you so much for being so honest about your binges, I too can suffer from that downward spiral that starts with just one bite, but seeing that I am not alone always helps!
Just wanted to re-iterate what Nicole said. We appreciate that you can blog about the good and the bad, and it’s always good to know that you’re not the only one out there with the same issues.
Sorry, dude! That stuff can cause me to lose control, too. I try to only make about four cookies’ worth at a time, otherwise it’s all over. But it sounds like you’re doing better with the nutritionist’s advice, and congrats on deciding to run the 5K!
Congrats on your 5k and I know last night won’t set you back at all. Binges are strange… I feel like their something that I did but I never really knew what it was or why because they’re things that people are almost ashamed to talk about. Mine often happen when I am left home alone with a full kitchen, when no one’s looking I’ll go crazy- cereal, ice cream, craisins, cookies… You’re blog is really inspiring to see that I’m not alone in my struggle with this and helping to get over these. Thanks for such an inspirational message and optimism
you can download these podcasts which are for the couch to 5k program. the music isn’t that great, but the are free and motivating.
http://www.ullreys.com/robert/Podcasts/podcasts/podcasts.html
Meghan - You’re definitely right about that - exercise makes me feel like I can tackle anything!
Kristie - Thanks for your support! From now on, you and me are binge-free! (until we’re not…and then its okay.
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Ashley - RIGHT ON! Keep me updated on your progress re: the 5k!
Julz - Thanks so much sweetie! Hehe, metrabolism!
VeggieGirl - Thank you!!
Sarah - I have been struggling with binging (and restricting) since high school - nothing serious, probably just the average woman’s struggles. For a while, I kept it off the blog because I was ashamed and not comfortable talking about it. But it was actually P who encouraged me to be honest on the blog. There are tons of blogs, magazines, tv shows, etc that have really awesome, with it, pulled together women that seem to have no flaws. I think I’m pretty awesome and pulled together, but I definitely have flaws - and this blog should represent my ups AND downs. If I wasn’t honest, I would be doing you guys and myself a disservice.
hk - THANKS!!
Justy - I’m running outside, which has always been kind of intimidating to me - but I made it!
Nicole - My pleasure…thank you for your support.
Jaclyn - I wouldn’t be able to be honest if I didn’t know you guys would be there for me. So thank you for making the blog a better place!
Arielle - Thanks! Devil cookies…
Diane - Me too - home alone with the goodies - I think it stems from childhood. Sneaking snacks from mom, you know. Thank you so much for your sweet comments, re: the blog. I hope you keep reading and commenting.
Eurydice - I saw those! They look awesome, love the inspirational stuff…but you’re right, the music isn’t that great.
- Kate