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    Hey guys,

    Not sure if I mentioned it in my last post, but yesterday afternoon we had a huge setback with our mural - basically setting us back a day and a half or so. It was really frustrating. I finished my plums during my afternoon meeting, and even though I wasn’t particularly hungry, I had a Luna bar around 4:30:

    After leaving work, I walked home and thought about my day. I was really frustrated about the mural project. It’s a huge step forward for me at work, and kind of my baby. And because of a silly mistake I made, we were really set back. I thought about my plan for the afternoon - I wanted to go do my C25K 2.1 (Couch to 5K Run Week 2, Run 1) run before I met readers Jaclyn and Lauren for dinner - but it was SOO hot. I really did not want to run in the beating hot sun. So I went home. So there I was around the apt with 1.5 hrs to kill. So what did I do?

    I ate.

    and ate.

    and ate.

    Sigh.

    Talk about self sabatoge.

    I realize now that I was eating my feelings - being frustrated at work, not to mention bored.

    Later, I talked to my friend Eva about it, and we figured out that what I need to do is to come up with a positive coping mechanism for when I want to eat like that. We talked about replacing eating with exercise or just taking a walk. I think being alone in the apt is a huge trigger for me - but it’s hard not being able to be in your own apt!

    Jaclyn, Lauren and I talked at dinner and I think all this self-sabotage is coming from a state of complacency. Although I’m not at goal, I do feel comfortable in this body. It’s hard for me to be strict with myself when I’m okay (not happy, but not unhappy perse) with where I am. Clothes look good on me, I’m not uncomfortable sitting or standing. I’m fit and can run/walk/bike/swim at the drop of the hat.

    But, if I continue to eat like I do (based on emotion and not hunger), I won’t be like that for long.

    I need to figure out how not to eat emotionally. To make that decision to eat for health and wellness and not for emotional satisfaction.

    I especially felt so guilty meeting up with Jaclyn and Lauren right after overeating so drastically. Not a very good ‘healthy living’ example. But, as I told them last night, at least they got the full WFWS experience!

    Anyway,

    I met up with Lauren and Jaclyn at the Life cafe. We sat in the Garden, which was just beautiful:

    I got an iced tea to start:

    Sorry, a little dark there. Plus my water bottle: hydrate, hydrate, hydrate!

    For an entree, I didn’t need much (obviously), but I did need to load up on veggies:

    I had about 3/4ths.

    The girls were SOOOO much fun - I had such an amazing time! They both had such great stories to tell and we were laughing so hard the entire time. I really think one of the biggest perks of the blog has been meeting other bloggers and readers. NYC is a tough city to meet people in - it’s so nice to get some ‘new blood’ in your life!

    Here are these beautiful ladies:

    Lauren on the left and Jaclyn on the right. :)

    I walked home and decided to head out for a run. No time like the present right? I did my C25K 2.1 run - and it was definitely tougher than Week 1’s runs! I actually had a stitch in my side at one point! Still, I was excited to be challenged! (Oy, I cannot believe I just said that - the ‘old me’ would die!) It felt great to get out there are stretch my legs, and I feel pretty good this morning. C25K 2.1 Run = 416 calories burned.

    Took some Melatonin last night and woke up pretty easily this morning (thumbs up so far!). At the office, I had a cup of the last of the Peace Maple Raisin and some Optimum Mush, plus 1c nonfat milk:

    Mmmm.

    So positive morning. Taking steps forward. Have a great day - and hey, it’s almost Friday! :)

    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 10:01
  • Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 10:22 | #1

    I understand completely about the emotional eating issues. My friend Monica is a holistic health counselor and she suggests having a list of things to do instead of eat on your fridge. Like take a walk, read, chat on the phone, do some yoga. Whatever it takes to get away from the food. It is SO hard!

  • Justy2003
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 10:41 | #2

    I know when I’m home all day I tend to snack more…simply because the food is there! I agree that a walk may be a good idea when you’re getting that itch to eat and eat. Plus, who knows, once you start walking you may even feel like kicking it up a notch to a run/jog!
    Good job on staying positive though and for still doing the run last night! Just hop back on the wagon ;) And it’s good that you’re recognizing what’s triggering you! Keep it up!

  • CourtneyS
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 10:58 | #3

    Kate, I think you’re doing a great job figuring out what’s getting to you and articulating how you feel about it. Everyone’s triggers are so unique to them, but a lot of emotional eating is tied to stress and anxiety. A suggestion: Geneen Roth’s books on emotional eating helped me so much, plus her writing style is hysterical! I think it’s in one of her books that she says she once put a sign on the fridge that said: It’s not in here. Sums it up, right?!

    You’re already back on track for today, which is the hardest part.

    (P.S. And I DON’T mean to sound like a mother, but be careful running at night!!!!)

  • claire
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 11:05 | #4

    I’m just like you. Being alone in my flat after I’ve ” completly failed” at work is a disaster for me. I just stuff food into my mouth until my belly hurts. It’s gross and after I binge I’m usually depressed for a few days. I’m really trying to stop binges before they happen. I have to talk to myself and say you are out of control, figure out what’s wrong, pray, call someone, get something done around the house, go running, etc.

    It’s great that you were able to get a run in after dinner.

  • Maggie
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 11:12 | #5

    Hi! I feel you on the overeating. It’s so hard to stop once you get in that mindset. I think the easiest way is to just remove yourself from the situation, even if it’s just a walk around the block — like a timeout between free throws. Also, I don’t allow myself to buy my ‘binge’ foods - a jar of peanut butter is not my friend.

    Just curious - how did you figure 400+ cals for a 2 mile run? I thought a mile was around 100cal burned if you run abt a 9-10min mile.

  • april
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 11:31 | #6

    I love the honesty in your blog–its quite refreshing to read something real and not “sunshiny” all the time.

    I do have a question/concern that I’ve been thinking about for awhile–if you’re somewhat comfortable with your weight now, why try and lose another 20+ pounds and get to a specific number? Thats a lot of weight to lose (and a LOT of total weight lost), towards what I would think would be a minimum weight for your height, and I would hate to see you be upset about not reaching a goal that is unrealistic or would make you restrict/unhappy just to get to a certain “number”. If you’re eating mostly healthy, can exercise, feel fit, and are (mostly) happy, I think thats great!!

  • Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 11:32 | #7

    I’m right there with you and did the same exact thing last night— I wasn’t even emotional really, just bored and felt like I needed to keep chewing and chewing. So frustrating! I’m glad you have a positive attitude though in moving forward and not beating ourselves up about it, we are still learning!

  • Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 11:45 | #8

    Hi Kate (& Jaclyn!)
    Really like the post! I think your honesty and style is very cool and encouraging.
    Cant wait to hang out with you girls again soon!!

  • Lindsey
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 11:51 | #9

    Wow ladies, I’m so happy I found you all. This happened to me last week. I made a mistake which set me back in my job search, I was alone in the apartment (boyfriend is gone for the summer on an internship), and I proceeded to eat Eat EAT! I knew what I was doing and fought with myself the entire way.

    One thing that helps is to read a journal entry you wrote while in a positive mood, or a list of inspiring quotes.

    Thanks so so much for the honesty, its so nice to feel like I’m not alone!

  • Jess
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 12:08 | #10

    Kate,

    I’ve been reading for a while but never commented. You’re not alone! I’ve been there and done that many many times. It’s so hard to listen to those voices telling you to step away from the eating and “take a walk”. When you are in the middle of those emotions it’s hard to listen…

    Keep up the positive attitude! You should congratulate yourself for completing your run after your afternoon and beginning today as a “new day”. Your honesty and attitude is so refreshing to read. :)

  • Jaclyn
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 12:41 | #11

    Hi Kate (& Lauren!)

    Last night was so much fun!

    Like I said last night, we have all been there before (ahem, Haagen Dazs mint chip ice cream) and I think a big part of what draws your readers back is that you are so honest and it’s helpful to see we’re not the only ones out there doing this. It’s also great to see how completely supportive everyone is!

  • Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 12:53 | #12

    Such a gorgeous garden dining spot!!

    So sorry about the setback, Kate :0( Just stay strong!! I know it’ll get better!!

  • wow
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 13:02 | #13

    it’s a wonder you’re not 500 lbs the way you binge all the time

    you’re right you’re not much of a healthy living example

  • Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 13:05 | #14

    I do the same thing, obviously, which is why I started my blog. I used to snack and snack and snack just because I was bored. I’m by no means perfect or even close to perfect now, but I try to remember to tell myself that eating a snack takes ten minutes, and then I’ll just be bored AGAIN. Instead, I need to find something to do. So, whenever I get the urge to snack and I’m really not hungry, I try to go on a walk or pick up a magazine or do a yoga or pilates DVD. And if I can’t do that, then I at least try to eat vegetables.

    Hope that helps!! I think you have to give yourself a little bit of room for emotional eating - everyone eats for reasons other than hunger from time to time, or there wouldn’t be chocolate. So cut yourself some slack, you’re doing great.

  • Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 13:11 | #15

    Hi Kate!

    I was looking through the other blogs and found your site, and like everyone said, it’s such a common issue! I find myself reaching for that extra handful of chocolate chips at night, even if I obviously don’t need it, and it’s purely from boredom or an attempt to accomplish something else that I am not able to identify at the time.

    Anyway, I wanted to echo what everyone has been saying about your candid attitude on this blog. I really appreciate it! I’m maintaining a healthy lifestyle (or at least as healthy as I can make it) but recently suffered some set-backs because of an injury. It’s hard to stay positive when you know physical activity is one of the main components of a healthy life and a sudden restraint is put on it.

    Sorry, long comment! I just wanted to say, that reading another person’s personal journey that isn’t always about success is really encouraging, in the sense that it’s proof that we’re all going through something. So, thanks!! And I’ll keep on readin’!

    -lisa

  • UVAJess
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 13:14 | #16

    Just because you binge (and DON’T purge) doesnt mean you are going to be 500 lbs!! I definitely have my moments and I am 5′4″ and 107 lbs. It’s just how you deal with them; you need to know how to stop and how to compensate in other ares of your diet where you are lacking. I recently ate a SIXTY serving bag of M & M’s in 7 days (My only binge food is chocolate FYI) Kate is just honest enough to share her experience with it…..which is why she rocks!

    PS I changed my name since I saw a new Jess :)

  • Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 13:24 | #17

    Kate, I have so been here. I have major issues with emotional eating and eating when I am alone or bored. I mean, let’s be honest - who binges in front of other people? It’s hard to stop yourself when you are a mission to eat yourself sick.
    I don’t have any good advice because I have the same problem, but I appreciate your honesty. I lay it all out there on my blog too.

  • Bridget
    Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 13:41 | #18

    Kate, i’ve been there too…what I’m amazed with in this post is how quickly you seemed to bounce back. You went to dinner with friends, ordered something healthy, went for a run, and it sounds like you woke up today ready to face a brand new day.

  • Thursday, July 17th, 2008 at 14:27 | #19

    C - List of things to do on the fridge - I’ll try that!

    Justy - Love the walking/jogging/running idea…thanks for the support!

    CourtneyS - I looked for her stuff when I went to the bookstore! They didn’t have the one I wanted but I’m totally going to order it on Amazon! Thanks for the tip!

    claire - Such a frustrating feeling isn’t it? The run was really good for both my body and my mind.

    Maggie - I wear a heart rate monitor that tracks my HR and calorie burn.

    april - Right now, I am at the top of the normal range for my height. Not overweight, but on the edge. My nutritionist Keri says that 130-135 is a good weight for my height. And even though I’m quasi-happy with my weight - I can do better. I can be better. My habits are 80% good and 20% awful. If I can get a hold of my emotional eating, then I don’t think losing the weight will be hard at all.

    Ashley - still learning, so true.

    Lauren - Thanks dude. Can’t wait to get together again!

    Lindsey - Definitely not alone. Please keep me posted on your triumphs and trials. :)

    Jess - Thank you for reading and commenting! I hope you’ll continue to comment - your support really means alot to me!

    Jaclyn - Last night WAS great. Can’t wait to do it again!

    VeggieGirl - Thanks!! You’re the best!

    wow - Just trying my best.

    Arielle - Love that, ‘or there wouldn’t be chocolate. Thanks for the support!

    Lisa - Thanks so much for your sweet comment and welcome to WFWS! I do try to keep it honest here - my ups are so much sweeter when you know how sour the downs were! I really hope you keep reading and commenting! Keep me posted on how you’re coping with the injury!

    UVAJess - hehe, thanks…you rock!

    Runeatrepeat - thank you so much!

    Bridget - That’s the only thing you can do, you know? Just try, try again!

    - Kate

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