Well, the emotional eating monster struck again!
This afternoon I finished at the office and set about my afternoon plan. I hit up the drugstore and then came home. I planned to change, have a snack, then head to the gym. It started off well. For snack, I had a 0% Fage container with a bit of Maine jam and honey:
And then I got caught up watching the Olympics. It occured to me that I hadn’t had any alone/chill out time on a weekday in a long while. Yesterday and today were just soooo stressful and I was sick of being overbooked and overscheduled. So I stayed home and watching the Olympics instead. I didn’t plan out when (if?) I would go to the gym, I just didn’t go.
So there I was in the apt.
Alone in the apt + feeling guilty about not following my plan + SUPER stressed + pressure of a few weeks without bingeing + being somewhat bored + sweets in the house.
It wasn’t a fair fight.
I didn’t really think about it when I decided to stay home - but I should have known that this would happen. The only reason I didn’t overeat yesterday was because I gave it serious thought and consideration, got OUT of the house and kept moving. As soon as I sat down today - boom.
So there went the last 4 Weight Watchers Big Cookies and Cream bars (I hate that I’m like Nostradamus and predicted my downfall in last night’s video). I also had a tiny spoon of PB and 2 butterfly chocolates.
Surprisingly, I didn’t feel sick or full or guilty. I felt happy. :P Happy that I had downtime to myself. Not necessarily happy I ate my weight in ice cream. Next time I’ll know I just want me-time.
I went to my 8:30 PM appt, and did my C25K run on the way back. Then I hit up the gym and watched the Olympics while doing 15 min Elliptical, 15 min Arc Trainer, and some stretching and ab work. C25K Run and Cardio = 721 calories burned.
I’m feeling good. Especially since the apt is clean and I did most of my to-do list today (despite doing some of my to-don’t list). I think that yesterday was such a triumph - between overcoming my emotional eating that day and running for a full 20 min - that today was sort of like a ‘two leaps forward, one baby step back’. And I’m cool with that. 
i’m glad you’re keeping a positive outlook even with the struggle you had today. that is what will get you through the hard times! and it’s great that you’re recognized what to do to when you feel the emotional eating coming on…i do the same thing all the time at work…i go out asap and walk…!
glad the workout went great! have a nice night! and yay for down time!!!
I’m inspired that you didn’t let your little ice cream fest get you down. That’s totally refreshing. Good for you!
I completely appreciate your honestly. You could have easily not written about that, or not posted at all… but you did and I commend you for it. We ALL have bad nights and it’s helpful for me, personally, to be able to truly relate to your blog and see how you worked past it.
Very inspiring post… I can’t thank you enough
Kate, even though you may not have the BEST relationship with food (yet!), you have an amazing relationship with yourself, and I bet that because of that and because you’re able to confront and recognize the problem, pretty soon these binges will subside.
Stay strong, Kate!! you accomplished a LOT today, so don’t let that ice cream get you down.
What a great attitude! If that were me, that totally would have been a large spoonful of PB and who knows what else after. Plus, there is no way I would have gone to the gym afterwards. I would have been too busy moping around.
And way to break my record. I ate 3 of those bars in one sitting on a BAD night and thought that record was going to stand for a while.
This is why your blog is my favorite. You’re so honest and are able to keep a positive outlook even when you binge. I, too, am trying to not binge but we all have our nights when we slip up. You’re doing great and I commend you for going to the gym afterward! You rock!
Kate, thanks for sharing your emotional eating battles. I have always been an emotional eater, especially when I am super stressed (like before finals or even packing to leave for school again). I appreciate you writing about how you dealt with it and how it made you feel. It’s really refreshing to see someone share their honest story about this.
Thanks again!
Kate, I’m going to be the echo here and thank you as well for being open with us and sharing your slip-ups. I definitely relate to what you said about not feeling guilty after a binge. I think that’s my main problem when it comes to eating; I never feel guilty for consuming unhealthy foods. Stick with it though, I’m proud that you made it to the gym afterwards. You totally do rock!
Thanks everyone! I’m glad you guys can understand and relate to the blog and to me. Thank you all for the incredibly sweet comments and support. I’m trying my best! Not every day is a winner.
- Kate