I overate AGAIN this afternoon. And this time I was not so happy coming out on the other side. I was really mad at myself, actually. I’ve made a ton of progress in the past couple weeks - really upping my cardio, committing to C25K, and doing well with eating a balanced diet. I really was not pleased. I can’t really say what brought it on (boredom, home alone) but I can say that I was really mad at myself for self sabotaging like that. Combined with feeling totally sick and miserable, I was ready to throw in the towel.
Finally I had to leave the apt to meet up with Arielle and Betsy. As I was walking over there, I was thinking such negative thoughts. I was thinking how I could explain this to you guys and how it was going to be really tough to spin this positively. There is no positive. I screwed up. Big Time.
When I met up with the girls at Counter, my bad mood totally melted away. It’s hard to be upset when you’re talking engagement rings and weddings! Plus those girls are hilarious and so fun. I didn’t mention my slip-up - I didn’t want to thing about it.
We split a bottle of champagne:
I had another 1/2 glass after this one. Congrats Ari and Chris!
For an entree, I just had a spinach salad with crusted goat cheese:
I ate it all except the bread.
I felt alot better leaving the restaurant - the girls totally saved my night! I met up with P as he was walked home from the gym, and we walked home together. Beautiful night.
I’m off for an early bedtime. I still feel like I’m getting sick. 
Oh PS, I mentioned it briefly this morning, but P and I are going to Orange County, California next Wednesday for a long vacation. Night!
Hey Kate. I hope you start to feel better soon. Just remember, every time you smile, everything/one will smile around you. and it makes you feel better.
Try not to be too mad at yourself, we all have our bad eating days. but you know you’ve had them and can move past them. each moment should be taken as it’s own…so the next moment, is all yours; do what you want with it!
g’night!
Oh yeah, and I forgot to say, YAY FOR OC!!!!! do you guys know what you’re going to be doing? there is sooooo much fun stuff to do there…i lived there almost all my life (until i moved and also went to school in San Diego!). if you need any suggestions let me know!
don’t worry about your slip up. here’s one of my FAVORITE quotes that is important to remember:
“Imperfection is BEAUTY.”
~Marilyn Monroe
have fun meeting P’s fam! i visited the OC once… SO gorgeous!
hi kate.
DO not fret. You possess such strength, passion and heart to be over and above this.
Just remember to look around you and be thankful for all that you have. Its easy to forget all the good things in your life when something so evil consumes your every thoughts.
*just a little note though and please don’t take this the wrong way. Just a question/observation?
but maybe your breakfast isn’t enough? The 1 cup of cereal, w/ skim milk + banana does not equate to that much ( esp. with your activity level) I am not nearly as active as you and I have at least 1.5 cups of shredded wheat, w/ soy & a huge banana plus nuts added for extra protein!
You are insanely active and walking so much in NYC and Breakfast is the most important meal of the day and is really a time where you should pump it in:)
just a thought ?
You know what, I GUARANTEE that you needed extra fuel… ESPECIALLY if you are getting sick! The body is very INTUITIVE (no pun intended hehe) about letting you know when it needs some extra gas in the tank to pull it through the day. ESPECIALLY when it’s trying to fight off something.
And honestly and truly Kate baby, you NEVER EVER EVER have to worry about “how you’re going to tell us” ANYTHING. We’re here for you no matter what you say or do and we’re going to support you and be here for you unconditionally. Just like puppies =]
I think it is good that you got out of the house and got around poeple.. today is a new day and you start over and maybr record your feelings about yesterday and carry it with you so when you feel theneed to binge you can read that
I’ve been reading your blog for awhile and I think you’re doing a great job. Thanks for sharing your pitfalls along with your successes. I think you have a great attitude about it and it was awesome that you still went out to have fun instead of sulking at home! Have a great Friday!
Heather
Don’t beat yourself up about the slip up, it happens to all of us! I know that I definitely have my binge days. Just get back on track the next day and keep trying.
And I love your blog, I think it’s awesome!
Kate, you’ve made TONS of progress; and you still are!! Do NOT beat yourself up over this - you’re stronger than that!! I’m glad that you felt better after a lovely dinner with Betsy and Arielle - keep enjoy yourself
Oooh, have fun in the OC!!
Kate, you really are doing well. Hey, sometimes it’s a rocky road to recovery! (from emotion eating that is.) As you said, you really have been upping the cardio, not to mention walking A LOT, and I know you already talked to Keri about this but perhaps you still aren’t eating to have have quite enough fuel? I don’t know if you’re still not counting calories, but if you aren’t you might be WAY under and never know it!
I hope you don’t get sick! I hate that looming feeling of sickness, where it will either go away or come on full force at any second, so keep healthy, lady!
Aw man, I’m sorry! I hope you know that you could have told us. But I’m glad you started to feel better. It was a lot of fun!!
Also, I really like this part of Melissa’s comment:
each moment should be taken as it’s own…so the next moment, is all yours; do what you want with it!
well, you sure didn’t seem down last night. glad we could cheer you up!! however, i’m definitely in the same boat as you and tend to end up overeating often too. it’s hard to get over…but one day at a time, and i try (oh so hard) not to be too hard on myself. not easy, but trying…
last night was really (really) fun though. maybe a little too much fun, considering i was slightly drunk when i meet my potential roommate. totally worth it though.
Melissa S. -
Thank you! And double yay for the OC!
Andrea - Thank you!
Lorisa - Great thought! I’ll definitely try to up my breakfast in the next few weeks - see if that makes a difference.
Julz - Maybe I did need the extra fuel - I definitely feel better today!
Christie - Great idea! Thanks!
Hangry - Thanks!! I’m trying!
Erin - Aw, thanks for loving WFWS! and for the support!
VG- Thanks girl! You’re the best!
Meghan - Good thought - I’ll mention that to Keri!
Arielle - I know I could have - you guys would have been awesome about it for sure! I just didn’t want to bring that negativity into what was such a positive and fun night!
Betsy - Definitely, you guys saved my night! Heheh, way to be the lush roommate - what she “the one”??
- Kate